is it worth it

Once your down at the bottom you kind of get used to it.

You look around and wonder - is it even worth trying to climb backup?
Then sometimes you realize you're not even at the bottom - do you decide to try then?

Why bother?
half the time there are more people trying to kick you down that help you crawl out. We live in a me first society. We live in a - I want it now society. Whether you want to admit or not we live in a - I really don't care about you society.

You don't agree. How many good news stories do you ever hear about? You don't - WHY? We (society) thrive on other people pain, we thrive on watching others suffer, & we continue to watch in blankness until it happens to us.

The whole nation watched as people worried about the "balloon boy" - how did that turn out?!?!
Whose interest did his parents put first? NOT HIS, he puked not once, but twice on national TV as his parents let this 6 year old boy get grilled about something he said, & as a society we watched - why?

Why didn't the first new station has social services in the wings to take that poor kid. Everyone who saw it could see he was emotional distressed, but yet thousands watched and did nothing.

So why climb out? So you can turn on the news and hear about a little girl whose body was found? A family has lost a little girl & yet we sit and watch? Why?

I think we would all be so much better if we were all like children and just kept asking the simplest of all questions?

WHY?
(and not exception the answer - just because)

makes you think

I have heard people say several times - "sometimes life just gets in the way" I never really understood it & honestly never really cared enough to try. I'm sure we've all heard expressions about - looking down the rabbit whole - or - how deep in the rabbit goes - when people are dealing with situation that they may not like the outcome.

Now that my life has started spirally down "the rabbit hole" I now get how "sometimes life gets in the way". Even more scary than that realization is realizing how often I've gotten in the way of life, how my stupid decisions have all had a part in what's going on.

As you start to spiral you think things like "I can get this under control" even as it starts to become uncontrolable. You catch your self thinking "It's not that bad" even as that foundation that you've built everything off of starts to collapse. I hate to use this, but it fits... It's like the Titanic and as it was sinking some people didn't want to acknowledge what was going on as if not acknowledging it would make it go away. Most people hear accounts of what happen or watch the movie and think "how could they act like that" or "what were they thinking" when in actuality they are doing similiar things in their own life. You don't agree?? try this..

Now that our economy absolutely stinks do you find yourself going back and questioning decisions that you may have made that are now financially impacting you?
If the economy didn't tank would you be questioning it?
example you purchase a house that you could barely aford prior to the crash. Was that smart? sorry to break it to you.. but NO, did the crashing economy make that a bad decision, not really.
What made that a bad decision was stretching yourself thin when you didn't have to - welcome to the rabbit hole.

I hard to tell you this, but if you're down here no one is going to help you out. You have to look at yourself and make the changes needed to fix your own situation. Stop looking around and blaming everyone else for your situation.

I think you'll be surprised at who else is down here.